Question: Is it wrong to look forward to death? not in a suicidal way but as in a reuniting with God way?

No, it is not wrong to look forward to your death. However, we need to be careful that we look forward to it because we love God and want to be with Him forever in heaven, not because we are looking for an escape from this world, because God has a plan for us in this world, and our desire to be with Him in heaven should not be greater than our desire to do what His will is for our lives while on this Earth. St. Paul struggled with this same question and this is what he said about it, “For to me life is Christ, and death is gain. If I go on living in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me. And I do not know which I shall choose. I am caught between the two. I long to depart this life and be with Christ, for that is far better. Yet that I remain in the flesh is more necessary for your benefit.” (1 Philippians 1: 21-24)

So as you can see, you are in good company. The suffering we encounter and experience in this life should cause us to long for heaven. But our desire should be to conform to the will of God, which may be that we are to stay here a little while longer so that God can bring about some kind of good in our lives for others. All of us should want to go home, and our true home is heaven, but as long as God thinks we have we have work still to do in this life, we should be resigned to His will with humility, patience and joy.

Christian singer and songwriter Andrew Peterson sings, “This life isn’t long, but it’s hard” in one of his songs. Sometimes I think for many of us that we find life hard and long. But God’s love and grace are with us and if we live in that reality, no matter how long or how hard, our lives will be fruitful.